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Why Is It That He Plagues Me...His Kisses, His Touch...They Just Keep Haunting Me....

He'll Come Back I Say....Any Moment, Any Day...So Like A Fool In Love I Sit And Wait.

He's Gone, Surely I See That ....But I Cant... I Won't Grasp The Fact That He's Not Looking Back.....I Refuse To Remember He Let Me Go....

"Just Come Back" I Begged "I Promise I Will Fix Me"....Don't Go, Please Don't Leave.

And As The Tears Streamed Down My Face....My Heart Pumping Outta My Chest He Just Shook His Head And Said "No Baby Its Not You...Its Me."

I Stood Dumbfounded...What Could I Say....What Do U Do When The Love You've Known Now Wants To Be Alone.

So Days Turn To Weeks, Weeks To Months And I Come Back One Last Time With The Last Shred Of Dignity I Have....The Last Piece Of Me That Has Any Self Worth....The Last Portion Of Me That Believes If I CHANGE That Me And Him Will Work.

I Sum Up The Last Bit Of Courage I Have....I Know Its All Or Nothing Now So I Have To Ask.....

"Baby Please", The Desparation In My Voice You Cud Hear....Him Gone Was My Biggest Fear.

"Just Give Me One Last Chance, Let Me Know What You Want And I Swear I'll Make U A Happy Man."

You See I Knew At That Moment I Lost My Mind...I Lost All Of My Self Respect And I Still Didn't Have My Guy....But I Held On....I Held Onto The Fact That'd He'd Eventually Come Along....


I Gave So Much....i Don't Know What Else To Give.....I Gave Up Who I Was, Lost The Man I Loved....And He Still Doesn't Want Me. I Look In The Mirror And Curse Wat I See....If I Wasn't Good Enough For Him Who The F*ck Wud Want Me.....Fall In Love, This Is What U Get.....A Broken Soul, No Place Or Nobody To Call Ur Own.

Think Like A Man??????

Soooooo I Would Like To Get Back On My Reading Grind And Do A Book Every Month Review On My Blog...Cuz I'm Like An English Major *Duh* And I Have To Be A Book Worm Etc Etc. Because It Is What It Is.....

But I Digress.

The Book I Choose To Read This Month Is Steve Harvey's "Act Like A Lady, Think Like A Man". So Far You Guys I LOVVVVE This Book....I am So Not Mad At The $26 Dollars It Cost Me Because I'm On My P And Q's Trying To Learn About "The Creatures" We Call Men.

Right Now I'm On Chapter 6 And I Could Have Finished Reading The Book In A Day If I Wanted But It's Just So Good And I Really Don't Want To Read Through It Too Fast. If I Had To Point Out Any Negatives About The Book It Would Have To Be The Fact That It's Way Too Entertaining But Is Sooooo Short. I Wish The Book Was A Little Bit Thicker, But This Book Speaks The Truth! I Find Myself Soaking Up Everything Steve Says Like A Sponge And I Also Highlight Certain Things That Stick Out As I Go Along.

There Was A Part In The Book That Was All Too Cute And Funny To Me (The Three P's). If You Ladies Want To Know If A Man Truly Loves You Then He Has To Have Had Displayed The Three P's.

First The Man Has To PROFESS His Love For You.

• A Man In Love With You Should Be Able To Introduce You To His Family And Friends As His Girlfriend....If He's Calling You His Friend Or By Your Name In Front Of These People Then He May Not Be In It For The Long Haul. A Man Should Be Able To Give You A Title Like "Wifey" Or "My Lady" Etc. The Title Let's Everyone Know He's Proud Of Being With You.

Second The Man Has To Protect You.

• When A Man Truly Loves You Anybody Who Says, Does, Suggests, Or Even Thinks About Doing Something Offensive To You Stands The Risk Of Being Beat Down. Your Man Will Make Sure That Anyone Who Disrespected You Pays For It. There Isn't A Man Alive Who Won't Protect What's His.

Third The Man Provides For You.

• Once A Man Claims You He's Going To Want To Provide For You. Men Are Taught To "Bring Home The Bacon" Since They Were Younger So Of Course They Want To Make Their "Lady" Happy By Providing Her With What She Needs. And Men Don't Only Provide Financially....Those Who Don't Have Much Will Do Little Things Like Buying Groceries, Or Helping You Take Care Of Your Car, And Doing "Manly" Stuff (Aka: Shoveling Snow, Mowing The Lawn, Carrying Heavy Things...Lol)

Sooooo Ladies And Gents That Was A Sneak Peak....Halfway Done With The Book And I Give It A Two Thumbs Up! I Can't Wait To Get To The "Why Men Cheat" Chapter!
Anyhow Toodles.....

Tears

Days Ago I Decided To Smile While Wiping Away The Last Tear For You I Sworn I'd Ever Cry

Weeks Ago I Didn't Know Me, I Needed You To Make Me Complete

A Month Ago I Vowed To Give Up , I Couldn't Live In A World No Longer Surrounded By Your Love

Four Months Ago I Questioned Your Loyalty, My Everyday Thoughts of You Leaving Constantly Overwhelmed Me

Five Months Ago We Made It To A Year And A Half, I Thanked God He Helped Us Last....In My Head I Saw The Day Where We'd Make You And I An Official Thing... With Chapel Bells Along With My Big Ol Wedding Ring....

But Tonight I Cried Because The Love I Have For You Is Still Alive.....I Sat And Asked Myself Why, Wiping Away The Thousandth Tear I'd Said Days Ago I Would No Longer Cry.

Blehhhhh

Love and I are breaking up tonight. Love will go its way then im sure to find my... Love, goodbye, but can you leave a trail behind Because I know myself and I will change my mind And want to love again

~Definitely How I'm Feeling...Done With "Love" For Now....I'm Good And Hitting The Pause Button~