April 30, 2010

Ping Pong

Stop playing ping pong with my most prized posession....im sick of u pulling my heart in that direction

One second you're here, the next you're not...the hoping, the longing, how can i make it stop...

Days have turned to nights, barren dead areas of the winter have sprung back 2 life and still it doesnt shame me to say i want it 2b like it was back in the day.

Unbreak my heart, fix my restless soul..say u never meant 2 let go....

Gimme back my smile, take back the night you said goodbye, tell me it pains u 2 see me cry.

Undo the day u met me, let me have spent the past 2 years lonely, wish i never knew wat it was 2 have u hold me, console me, be your one and only.

April 19, 2010

Up Out My Face Nucca

I hate g. Like if theres one thing i hate its g. So the other nite i met this guy....i dont know why but i give these randoms the time of day because im bored (and cuz in my mind im gonna  toss the number and ignore the sucka ne ways).

So i give this guy my number...i dunno just to see  if i still got it (pow!)...but im starting to realize maybeeee i shouldnt give out my number if my intentions are not to speak to these guys on a long term basis (and its really not, as weird as it sounds its just to remind myself "yea ur not an unattractive person but u just choose to be alone").

But anyways i digressed... i gave this guy my number and within an hour he texted me, within 2 hours he called me and i told him id call him back...when i was  done eating...within an hour of that he texted me. He didnt even give it the standard 24 hours guys have to give b4 calling a girl! Mkay apparently i pull the crazies.

So i was bored in skool the day after i met him and i wanted to test his crazy so i texted him to see where his head was.

Me: so wats up

Him: nuthin layin down bout to get sum breakfast. So wat u doing later wanna catch dinner and a movie?

Me: uhhhh no i have skool all day till 9pm

Him: yo i wanna make u wifey 4 real. I swear i'll treat u rite 

Me: err uhhhh lol u funny (In my head: nigga please!). So wat do u do?

Him: rite now training to be in the nypd gonna get my gun license soon

Me: o

Him: I need a wife tho something serious you look like wifey type tho das if u let me wife u up I got a lot planed in my life to work hard and make goals

Me: so y u single?

Him: I was in and out of something I was wit shawty for 2 years but I'm not goin back she's not serious and I aint gone lie I wasnt wit her cause she wasnt with it

i Wan it to be serious well I was at 1st but she young she's 18 turn 19  and I'm 23 like who's mature? Like well I was she was on her childish shit so

Well theres alot more of him buttering me up but this is a phone post so im getting lazy, wat u think guys? psycho azz or good azz g?

April 14, 2010

Dating Out Tha Box?

So I'm Gonna Get Into This Without Getting Into It. Okay People Let's Say U Find Someone Attractive, They Have Nice Qualities, Personality Off The Chain, And Ur Zodiac Signs Match (Yea I Know Im On Psycho Status...lol)....

Um But Yea They Are All You Wouldn't Mind Dating But There's Only One Hang Up...They Aren't The Same Ethnicity As You. Does That Bother Any Of You Guys?

There's A Classmate I Have Who Is A Koooool Dude, Like Deadazz But The Thing That Bugs Me Out Is That If I Ever Wanted To Talk To Him I Have This Whole Mental Block Up About Making The First Move On Someone Who Isn't Black Or Latino. Pleeeeeeeeeeeeeease Don't Get Me Wrong I Would Loveeeee To Date Outside My Race But If I Had To Make The First Move Or Tell The Person I Liked Them Then I Wouldn't Do It For Fear Of Rejection That I'm Not His "Type".

I've Only Dated Black Guys And My First "Play Boyfriend" Was Mexican So I Haven't Got Around To Experiencing Different Flavors In The Ice Cream Shop...(Ha!) But I Def Wouldn't Mind, The Only Thing Is I Wouldn't Know How To Go About It. .

Okay Take A Stroll With Me Into My Sick Azz Mental Processing: Alright Lets Say The Person I Want To Talk To Is Asian Or Caucasian...What Goes Through My Head Is -->

What Will We Really Have In Common, He Definitely Didn't Grow Up Where I Did...

What If I'm Just An Experiment For Him?

How Is He Gonna React If I Take Him Home, Or How's His Family Gonna React When They See Him Stroll In With A Sista Girl?

I Mean You See Guys...Do U See This Hang Up I Have? I Would So Be Open For Broadening My Experiences But Those Three Reasons Above Roll Through My Mind ....I Think My Hesitation About Interracial Dating Would Come From My Thoughts Of What The Guy I'm Dating Thinks About What Other People Think And If It'd Affect Him. Most Of My Worry 2 Wud Be About If Our Feelings For Each Other Wud Surpass The Hate And If My Man Can Handle Us Not Being A "Normal" Couple To Others. What Do You Guys Think? Are Any Of U Guys In Interracial Relationships And How Do U Guys Deal?