February 25, 2010

Wam Bam Thank U Maam?

*Sigh* I Think I Was Dreading Writing This Post I Dunno...Maybe Cuz Im Scared To Admit The Truth To Myself Which Is That Im Single And Solo Dolo....But I Guess My Relationship/Non Relationship Status Needs To Be Addressed.

So It's Been Exactly Four Months Since My Significant Other Has Left Me....I Don't Know I Guess I Can Say Im Mixed Emotions About The Situation...They Don't Lie When They Say Life Goes On After A Breakup But Of Course I Will NOT Water Down The Fact That The Shit Does Hurt. (As Cliche As It Sounds) A Person Going Through A Breakup Definitely Has To Take One Step At A Time. Um Months Ago The Thought Of Talking To Another Man Made Me Nauseous, And Not That I'm Ready Now For Another "Commitment" But When I Finally Do Decide 2 Talk 2 Someone I Will Be Hella Cautious.

Looking Back I Used To Hattttte When My Parents Came At Me With The Bull ish Like "Well Shirley You Should Wait Till You Graduate From College B4 Focusing On Boys" And I Used To Think Those Old Heads Were On Crack. Honestly Hindsight Is Always 100Percent But I Do See Why They Said What They Said....This Semester I'm Doing The Five Classes Thing, Trying To Be Social, And Focusing On Me.

And Ladiesssss Please If You Are With A Man And Don't Trust Him For What Ever Reason...Whether Its You're Insecure, Or He Did Something Etc. Just Leave....Because It's Only Gonna Go Downhill Once U Become Miss Private Investigator.

With My Ex I Was So Caught Up And I Got So Distracted That I Forgot To Do Me. Then Came My Accusations...Etc. When A Relationship Deteriorates To That Point Its Not Even Worth It. Right Now I Can Say Emotionally I Don't Need His Support...Emotionally I'm Done With Him......It's Tough Tho And A Sista Has Needs!

I Mean I Know I Need To Respect Myself Etc. And Move On Physically As I Have Mentally But Until I Find A Guy With The Total Package It's Gonna Be Hard...


Jazmine said...

Ok so I really understand what you're going through although I've never experienced it for more than 24 hrs, but the time I did was unbearable, so I can only imagine. What makes it worse is that it seems like while it's driving you crazy the dude is all nonchalant like he's not even phased, but most times (hint hint) they are and just don't want to let it show. I know it's hard but I think with you guys the way you're still around doesn't really help the matter because it doesn't really give you the time you need to fully be over everything. You do need to as you said, focus on yourself and school and your social life because that will make it all much easier. Whenever I'm going through it, my friends and my aspirations for the future are what always keep me grounded and you can never underestimate the value of a social life because without that you'd be left with nothing. To say it will all get better in time is so cliche and doesn't really help much when you're going through it but it's the honest truth and one day it really does change. I feel you about the other guy thing and the physical aspect too but that's respectable and more people should be that way. Maybe you need to free yourself emotionally AND physically if the whole situation is still getting to you. At the end of the day, sometimes you have to put your happiness and what you need and deserve before what you want and before everything else. It's just up to you to decide what's the best thing for you and nobody else.

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